Random Thoughs and A Dream

I can't sustain a frame of mind for five seconds without wanting to leap out a window. Living is too difficult without having what they value. A gift could be anything everyone already deemed worth being such. Selfish selfish selfish. do I ever ask what he or she or they are doing because maybe they know a better solution to existing. When all our surroundings are polluted, what happens to the human being? Can we really live in filth and not become it? Feed me but give me the tools to feed myself first. I feel like the word career has become a synonym for suicide.

Last night I was in a first person shooter killing hi-res aliens in very creative ways. I was also in a swimming pool with my cousin and he asked me to summon the king of the sea but a woman showed up instead, materializing out of the water. He wasn't fooled. He wore a crustacean suit. A facebook aquaintance was trying to steal everyone I love. I was traveling in a cirucs caravan with a girl with tan skin and dark hair; she was telling me I'd see my love soon. I was in a house cleaning with Alysha but I was a woman named Joe instead of myself. The landlady next door told me that I was paying rent there too and then two men at separate times told me I'd impregnated them.